Following my heart....

[ValerieA]

Journaling:

Another opportunity for H to do something with me...and the kids...this evening.

Another opportunity that was ignored...actually, I should say declined.

I took a chance on asking HIM if he'd like to do something together, but he said, "No thanks. I want to go play in this tournament tonight."

.......... .........

I had S9's and S6's parent/teacher conferences today, and as a reward for their outstanding report cards , I told the boys I would take them out to their favorite restaurant.

I decided that I would call H and invite him along.

I wish I hadn't.

.....(SIGH).....

So let's see now.....

We had the R talk (where H said he wanted to do whatever it was going to take to be together again) nearly 6 weeks ago...and he wants to be back in the house with us by the 1st.

Yet...nothing's happened. H has done NOTHING.

No MC, no dating me..........nothing.

Why am I even still here? What am I trying for? What am I waiting for?

He knows what he needs to do, but he chooses not to.

So what am I to do? Just accept that this is the way he is? Just live with it?

I think not.

Thanks for listening.