Following my heart....

[ValerieA]

Thanks for your visit, WCW .

It just popped into my head that someone once posted to me that it seems I don't trust H in any aspect of his life...they were right...I don't.

I have absolutely no trust nor any faith in H.

I trust that he will always take care of the boys...financially...but that's about it.

He lies...or he doesn't stick to what he says he's going to do or not do.

I can't tell you how many times I've heard, "I'm done with poker. I'm serious. I can't take the bad beats and negative swings anymore...I'm done, and I'm not playing anymore." -- Mmm hmm...I just heard all of that last week again, and as usual, he's been out to the card room 3 times already this week.

Same thing with the sports betting.

I've been around him so many times when friends or relatives would ask him for a favor or something else, and he would always come up with some excuse to get out of doing it, whatever "it" was. Even if his own mom asked him for help with something...and many times I even had to make up excuses for him whenever I went to family get-togethers because he didn't feel like doing anything or being around certain people in his family.

(Sigh)...I'm just tired of hearing his excuses, and when I ask him about something, I always wonder if he's using one on me. For instance, the MC....nothing still , and we talked about this over a month ago. You know what I think? I don't think he's called at all.

I've also told him about what I need as far as dating goes. I explained this to him a week or two after he moved out 4 months ago...a month ago...and again 2 weeks ago when he asked what he needed to do to "sweep me off my feet".

I just don't feel like I have any faith in H to do any of what I'm asking for...and HIS deadline of January 1st is approaching fast.

I don't think it's going to happen because I just don't see the effort coming from him.

Thanks for letting me vent . Have a good evening, everyone.