Things have been going well over the past few days. H has called everyday since...well, he's actually been doing it for a long time now. He continues to always ask if I need him to pick anything up before he comes by for the kids, his mail, or whatever, and I thank him every time and let him know how much I appreciate it.
When he's here, he stands close to me and is always facing me. He'll even brush up against me when we pass by each other...I'll look at him...and he'll smile at me like he's being sly or something . I know he's trying to get close...this is what he has done many times in the past.
When we're on the phone, he'll ask how my day went....this is something he VERY RARELY ever did, so it's really nice when he does.
Halloween night when we returned to the house and before H left, he gently put his hand on my cheek and gave me a very soft kiss goodnight .
Like I said, things are going well...very well ...however, I am still waiting on MC. I brought it up today when I talked to H, and he still says no one ever called him back. He's calling again tomorrow.....I'm having doubts....Is he being truthful about it or not? Is he stalling? Hmmm....I'm not going to call and make the appt....This is on him to take care of....but how long is long enough? According to what H told me, he called at least 6 different MCs about 2 weeks ago.
Well, I've been thinking a lot like I always do , and I've come to the decision to keep moving on with my "new" life, but I will also leave the door open for H....so now is the time for him to prove himself to me....I will say that he's off to a good start.
I know what I have to do for H. I must continue to praise him with WOA and just be there for him...emotionally...because that's what he needs so much of. It will be a challenge...a BIG one especially if he needs the emotional crutch everyday...but hopefully in time, H will get better with the help of C, and maybe even after he gets a new job that he actually enjoys.
When the right time comes along, I will sit down with H and tell him what I need in this R, and I'll listen if he tells me what he needs (if it's anything other than what I said above). As we all know, I need QT and more tenderness in the PT department. I'll talk about dealbreakers with him....if one should occur, that's it. There will be nothing more (although I do expect a little backsliding here and there -- on both sides ).
I do believe I've grown very much in the past few months. I can feel it . I know what I want, and I'm not afraid to speak up for it anymore. I've been quiet for far too long.
Following my heart....
Thanks for listening.
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
. I know he's trying to get close...this is what he has done many times in the past.
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, and I've come to the decision to keep moving on with my "new" life, but I will also leave the door open for H....so now is the time for him to prove himself to me....I will say that he's off to a good start.
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