YoYo It is not easy but I feel it retains my own dignity and that way he is not calling all the shots. ML should be something 2 people do b/c they want to enjoy that experience together as a greater level of their love. If I wanted to just have sex I could do that with anyone, as H has been away for some time now it is alot easier to resist him b/c I have got more used to going without. I just will not allow him to have control of everything and it is my body and if I choose not to share it with him well too bad. Build a bridge and get over it I say.
Yes this whole experience has given me a much stronger will power....KDU
