If I just take and do everything H's way then I am going against what I want so I need to find some sort of balance.
Absolutely.
Maybe he cannot help it at the moment, I don't know.
It seems a pretty safe guess he's suffering from at least some level of depression. If he gets the proper meds and he sticks with them it could make a world of difference.
And what the lady at work said makes it easier to believe he's depressed and got a little endorphin kick from the attention of a tarty woman at work.
Kim you've put a lot of work into this. Don't give up now, okay? No one can blame you if you don't have much to give right now; you've been pouring it out for a long time. But let me give you the advice still_hopeful gave me once: do no harm. Give yourself a little time where even if you don't have energy to put into your R, you don't work against your R, either. You're still pleasant, you still validate some, you just don't knock yourself out for awhile. Then see where you are after that.
Good luck!
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