The amitriptiline wasn't for depression - it's a treatment for VS. In small doses it numbs the vagina and the vestibular tissue so I was on it after being diagnosed in 1996. It worked from the point of view that it numbed me so completely that I couldn't feel sex whatsoever and thus enabled us to at least do it. Not very satisfying but better than none.
Then I had DD1 but I was sleeping ALL THE TIME on it, even though it was low dose, and with a baby to take care of and Andy out at university all day I came off it.
The other meds were for depression.
But as they said, it was reactional depression and that's difficult to treat.
I am happy when he's not here. It's as simple as that. I just need to get him out of my life.
I know people say don't react, but to me, if he wasn't there I wouldn't have to worry about whether I react or not. I just want my own life, without him messing me around.
