Apart from having a fit American Psychologist flirting with me, I have another reason to be happy...my copy of my book, 'Till Death Do Us Part'.

I felt like a kid on Christmas morning, opening it. It's much better than I thought it would be, and a really big book - well worth the money, I reckon. I had thought it was expensive, but now I've changed my mind.

I was sitting there, thinking, I can't believe I did that. 2 years work and it's finally in my hands. I was almost in tears. It almost makes getting a D and losing my kids worth it because I never would have done it if they were still here.

There's a message in it for my kids when they are older.

I keep picking it up and putting it down, I can't believe how nice it looks.

Jay, buy one please because then you'll know my writing style and how I can help you with your book. We could write it together. You have a really cool surname, with the name like that on the front of a book it would sell.

Gabe, you must have got your copy ages ago - you never told me how nice it looks! (and everybody, he's on the back cover, LOL).

It was literally 2 years work, toiling away in the evenings and every other weekend. I'd sit for hours and write 10 hours straight with only food breaks. I hardly ever went out because I was so obsessed with finishing this book.

I've written before, but never been as driven, and now when I look at the end result, I know all those late nights in front of my computer were worth it.

Now all I need is more customers, so c'mon guys, cough up!

Andy's coming round later with the girls. I just can't wait to show them this. He's probably going to be mortified, LOL.

Jo.