Hi Jill

I hope so, but I can't help feeling dread about the whole thing. The first Christmas we had post-split was only 5 or 6 weeks after the 'bomb' and a total disaster (written about on my novel book shop site, if anyone wants a read), the 2nd Christmas after started off okay as I was DB'ing and the actual day itself was fine, but then his mother ruined Boxing Day and called me a selfish bitch, a lousy mother and a whole host of other names in front of my DD's.

So after that I decided to write off Christmas post-separation as a mistake and I book my holidays at Christmas now instead of in the summer. The year after that was bad because I went to a holiday camp and was attacked by a member of staff, but having said that, it was still better than having Christmas with him and the IL's.

Christmas 04 has been the only nice one I've had since being single. I went to Cyprus and hung out on the beach with DD4 on Christmas Day, and got chatted up by a sexy Greek waiter. Then when I got home, Andy came over all sentimental and he and the kids came for the day on the 30th and we had the best time ever.

But everyone knows all the stuff that's happened since then and this is the first time I have attempted to include the rest of my family in a couple of years.
I am just terrified he is going to be a jackass about things and ruin it for me.

Oh well, I suppose if he spoils this year, then I know to go away again next year.

Jo.