Hi There Briget,

Well, I can't play pool, or do most sports or exercise class because of my disability. I used to horse ride when I was a teenager but had to give that up due to my VS.

I don't have a car so I do walk most places and probably walk 2 or 3 miles a week, so that's exercise.

My computer class I only get to once in a blue moon as my babysitter fell through when she got a job and Andy just isn't flexible to accomodate me.

I have joined a spiritual group (a bit like a church), but it's in the next town along and so costs me a fortune to get there so I only go once every 2 months. No one talks to me, except if I take DD4, then they talk to me because she is there, and I have a cup of tea afterwards.

I have done courses before (improving your child's vocabulary with story telling, and First Aid) but I never seem to make friends.

This is a really poor area and most other mothers were lucky if they finished school, smoke cigarettes, and only interested in TV and their kid etc. I feel like I have nothing in common with them so it's hard to make friends when you have no similar interest.

I can talk babies for hours but that gets boring after a while.

I have looked into cookery classes, script writing classes, law etc, but all of these clash with DD4's nursery school times so I can't do it.

There's only one person I would ask to babysit and since she works all the time I don't like to ask more than once every couple of months. I have babysat her son but then she's done me other favours.

I can't go to bars/clubs on my own, or the cinema, or a restaurant. These are things you do as a couple, and at any rate, I am scared of being attacked.

I have applied to work with the police on the CCTV cameras, but again, that's work, not pleasure.

I shall have to think carefully about this.

Jo.