It's shock and not knowing what I want or whether I want to kill him or shag him, love him or hate him and right now I feel so confused I don't know what the bleedin' hell I want anymore...and him, well, he's even more confused than me!!!
Half the people in the world want to shoot him, another quarter don't have a clue what to do and the final quarter want him to marry me. I feel the same as all of those people all at once.
I've decided not to call him H or X - he is neither my husband nor my ex, nor a partner?? Dunno what he is, certainly not a 'friend'. I reckon my new name for him will be 'Love Machine' (LM) - LOL.
