Thanks Hope - I have read your thread and you seem a bit stronger today.
I feel very 'high' today, considering that tomorrow is FIL's funeral, it's a bit weird. I've been singing all these love songs all afternoon (I always sing when I'm happy).
I think it's because I have decided in my own mind that I'm not going to FIL's funeral so I don't have to deal with EX-OW1 or any of his relatives and this makes me feel more centred. I have got the publisher to add a dedication to FIL in the front of my vaccination book, which will be published all over the world, so that to me, is my tribute to him and I still manage to keep my self-respect.
I also think it's the injections as well, as they are making me produce more eggs so I feel really 'quirky', if that's the right word.
After all the pain and disappointment of the last few months, I am quite excited that I'm so close to helping 2 other people achieve their dreams.
