Hanging on this Merry Go Round #4

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Having a blue day, weather doesn't help much. And I started my day at work by getting a guy not only fired but locked up. Geez, I feel bad, emailed H about it. Don't know why I did, I'm sure he doesn't care or if he even saw the email, he hasn't asked and I haven't shared much of my job stuff anymore. He used to be real proud of me and my position, another change of the times.

Actually I started my day with high hopes 'cause I heard H come in the bathroom while I was in the shower.........nope, he left again. But later while walking by H at the kitchen table, I brushed his arm and said good morning, got a grumble back. He was in the shower as I was leaving, and I couldn't find my truck keys, which he used last night. I about died on an overpass with the little gas saver car last week, and with roads being bad today I was taking some security. I had to ask, he poked his head out of the shower, and said check his left front pocket, and watched while I found them, and he said sorry, I said no problem. I wonder what was in his other pockets?

Last night he played with his new replacement phone after he made a special trip to town to get it activated. I was SO close to asking if I could ride along and we could grab something to eat in town, we rarely do that, but I chickened out. I should have went, while he was gone in my truck and his was parked at home - I snooped. Dumb.

I also missed an opportunity for him to help me, I blew it. He had removed the stock tank heaters for whatever reason, and I had to go inside and ask what was up with them. Then I went and restrung the cords and put them all in, done and went in the house. A few minutes later H asked if we had tank heaters to put in yet.......no, I did that.......oh(with surprise in his voice). Dang!! I blew it! Guess I'm good and consistent at something - screwing everything up.

I so want to run away and not go home until everything is okay again. Thanksgiving has always been my most favorite holiday.