Yes, 180's, DB'ing, take care of myself. All things to reinstate, for me. I am going on the trip, at least so far, two more calls to make arrangements and then I leave early morning Wednesday. I also called about some bills, dealing with things I have ignored doing out of dread to put things back in just my name. Taking care of myself also includes protecting financial interests. Is it time to talk to my family and get some support from them? I have not said anything to them for fear of their reaction to H and making him unwelcome if there is a future.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.