Hanging on this Merry Go Round #4

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Becca, from Idaho, that's where H lived before he moved here to be with me and start our life together. Hohum.

Thanks for your input. I expect nothing tonight from H, I do believe he'll come home and act as it this morning never happened. I know he had deep feelings of emotion, and being physical was so much a part of our lives, we discussed it often. So I'll see if BigAl King of Flirt can give me some lessons on flirting too. Any other ideas on how he can realize he wants me? and again, my optimistic mind keeps thinking he already knows he does, he just can't let his guard down and let me inside. His pride is in the way. Must be my vanity, how could this guy not want me?

I keep thinking of other bits and pieces of this morning, wish I could get to the keyboard when I think of them. One thing was HE didn't think IT was there, I'd like to know if that's just him or if he thinks IT is not there for me either. And what I can do to emphasize that it really is, but I have it bottled up because I am afraid to let it out for fear of chasing him away. I'd love to shower him with affection and physicalness, but I'm confused and afraid of the wrong consequences. Can I feed him that information?