Hanging on this Merry Go Round #4

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No pain no gain? not a problem, maybe I can explain a little better.

H initiate communication - for a while he was basically dark, while during better times he would call me daily as he was on his way to his first job. It took me a long time to even notice that he no longer called me and broke off all contact (guess I'm sorta dense in my own little foggy world, but then it turns out he was in constant contact with ow) but it was always during my work time and I almost felt some relief that he wasn't calling me at work everyday. Some of this contact has started coming back, although it seems in streaks. If I call or txt or email routinely, he clams up unless absolutely necessary to respond. If I stay quiet, he pops in with something almost everyday, even if it is late. So while I can't MAKE him communicate more, I can encourage it by not starting it.

H initiates more physical contact - pretty much the same as above. It's been painstakingly slow and nothing constant, but if I give a hint by brushing his back when we pass or even last weekend at the hotel he was sitting at a chair on the internet I walked up behind him and rubbed his neck and shoulders, he seems to come back with something in response in a while. I can't MAKE him but I can encourage it in small steps.

H accepts my physical contact - absolutely nothing I can do, but keep hoping. At least he didn't roll his eyes and put his hands on his hips or turn away this morning. But if I do nothing towards this goal, then it becomes so foreign to touch each other and it is awkward if we happen to bump into each other.

By the way, I can't even control the housekeeping, he's better at making the messes than I am at getting it cleaned up.

Does that clear up any mud? I do appreciate your support, and honesty.