WCW, I was not bored a all. It is fascinating how our R develop and what an impact it has on us. But, in your case...
Quote: I am in control of this relationship. H is directly affected by my actions and my treatment of him, even if he won’t admit it.
In my, I must say very humble opinion, this is huge. This is critical that you recognize it, and it is wonderful that you can strategize and act accordingly. I would come up with a list of incremental goals, and would start nailing them one at a time. You can do it! Good luck, dear. And thanks for visiting my thread, and thank you for your advice as well. You are such a friend.