ny, what i meant and try to communicate is the total indifference my W has towards our history. she says she wants to get rid of the guilt and shame, and that she wants to live life enjoying the process, and not worrying about forms or actions. when i hear that i cant understand her, because every where i go i remember my Ds (songs, parks, children), and i remember her because i love her. i gave her 10 years of my life, many times wrong, but i did invest my energy and feelings, so her practicality and coldness, astonishes me...... i honestly dont know about God, and just found out i am not a monk, philosopher, or dont have the intellectual capacity to understand him, all i know is that i love my family, and i miss them tremendously, that is what i am sure of, but when she communicates through abstract concepts and spirituality, it boggles my mind.
