Oh Yoyo.. BIG HUGGS to you! I'm sorry you're having such a hard time emotionally right now. I agree with the other posts, don't beat yourself up for giving into temptation with H. I'm having a hard time here because I'd love to have sex with my H, but I know it's unhealthy. I gave in a month ago, and felt like you did after... HORRIBLE. I captured those feelings and whenever he's being flirty, I remember how awful I felt to have sex with someone that I don't have a healthy intimate R with. Remember how bad you feel today and you don't have to put yourself through this again unless you want to do it and will feel good after. It does help me alot to make sure I'm taking care of my physical needs, and it has cut down the temptation a bunch. Of course it's not the same, but I don't have to worry about feeling like I've backslid after.
Good luck sweetie. Your friends on the BB are thinking of you and care more than you know!
