Kismet/KML - Thanks for your concern about my poisoning/allergic episode... The doc did give me some anti-histamine medication. Err..actually did have some fish this morning. No reaction so far. I think could be what Ellie indicated with regards to "improper refrigeration" of the fish. I actually have a follow-up visit with the doc tomorrow..
Journalling.. Continuation from my last post...(Actually, the texts from me are kinda jumbled up....) H: Firstly, where are u going?? Secondly, I have already made up my mind where I would like to go. I have been cracking my head over the last few days how to tell her. I swear on my grandmother's grave. You know I'm telling the truth when I say that. Me: I am going to the East Coast for Work. And I am just making plans to let go. As with all projects, I will propose a separation plan that will include visitation schedule, procedures, $$ payment schedule etc. Please feel free to amend. H:You have been very understanding and calm all the while. Pls stay that way. U will hear from me very very soon. I do love you. Me: I am still as calm as before. It's just that I am very very tired of holding onto this marriage rope. And I am just making plans to let go. As I told you, I am not going to drag her down. So please don't feel cornered. I really really don't want a fake marriage. H: Aiya.. you are very noisy you!!! I'll contact you. Nite Nite. Love you and not fake. Can't remember what else was exchanged, but H texted "Nite nite Hottie". And I think I did mention to him about my MIL's remarks about my dress.
Yesterday (Tuesday) ... I got a text from H in the evening (he made the first contact of the day) "Going to the airport now. Call u when back in Country X. Arriving at about 7-8 am Wed morning". I replied "Okay. Have a good flight back. Call the boys over at mom's".
This morning...got a text from H..which was sent early in the morning. I didn't get it earlier as my mobile has gone whacko and have been having NO service. So I have actually gone DARK with the help of my malfunction phone. H:Tried calling but vmail. U really need to change your phone.In transit now...will board plane for Country X. Call u later. Me: Yes. I will buy a new phone this weekend. Hope you have a good trip. Ta. Then I got a missed call from H (again..my malfunction phone provided the DARKNESS factor) H texted : Tried calling again but vmail again. In Country X already. Where are you anyway? H then managed to get through my phone. Our convo was cut short by my malfunction phone again...
I texted: I am in the East Coast, driving home now. Boys are over at mom's if you want to talk to them. H: Hope u are not driving on your own. For my info....are u still a h*rny b*tch lately?? Me: No. I have a new colleague with me. And it's none of your business whether I am still a * or not. H: Of course is my bisiness. Missed f*cking your c**t Me: Pls stop! All this talk is no good for my emotional calmness. Please limit our talk to the boys and practicalities. Therefore, no reference to bodily parts nor name calling. Period!!! Ta.. H: Ok ok. Call u tonight. Me: No need to call me. If you want to talk to boys, call my mom's house. Ta.
So, ...came home and got a call from H about half and hour ago. Me: H1! Boys are over at my mom's. H: I know. I called them already. S5 said that mommy is at home. Me: Oh. Okay. H: You drove back? Me: Yeah. Am very tired. H: (Smiling).. tired from the drive or tired of me. Me: Both. I don't want to fight. H: We are not fighting. Me: Not yet. H: Anyway...I am going for a meeting now... blah blah blah... (H then talked about the car conking out, blah blah blah) Me: Okay, bye.
So, that's it. I didn't say much. Normally, I would be feeling quite positive about H making sooo many contacts and sounding cheerful. But I just can't feel ecstatic about anything.
