StrongNSassy, KML, Kismet - Hey Gals...Thanks for your concern about me... Feeling much much better. Thanks!

I strongly suggest you go and have testing to find out what the allergy is...I just read on CNN how a little teenage girl died from kissing a boy who had just eaten a Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich...she had a food allergy to peanuts.
Strong - I am not too sure if we have this type of testing facility over here in this part of the world. And yes, I did hear about the girl who died after kissing her boyfriend. Very tragic!

Good on you for going dark and getting back to GAL...he's so close to being there but he needs to get knocked down a step to move up to the plate.

Third - quit goading your H, honey. I know he's frustrating, but you did tell him he has until January, why blow all your hard work by pushing his buttons now?
Strong, KML - I just don't have the energy to deal with H's empty words now. I figured that going DARK and not have any contacts would be better than having NEGATIVE CONTACTS. At my current emotional turmoil, I just cannot find anything positive to say, whatever I say might end up pushing all his WRONG buttons, so might as well go DARK and be somewhat NEUTRAL.

First - Get your doctor to prescribe what is called here in the States an Epipen. It is an autoinjecting device containing a dose of epinephrine - you just hold it to your thigh and it does the rest. It can save your life if you have another reaction and medical help isn't arriving quickly enough. You should carry it with you at all times.
KML - You think I need to? I have never ever had any allergic reactions to any foods. I am sort of a Garbage Can or sorts.. Could a person develop "sudden" allergies as they grow older (urrghh hate to use the word older...)??

tell me exactly, everything you ate or drank with that meal, and I can tell you which items are the most likely culprits. I'm an MD and I happen to know a lot about food allergies.
KML - Hey Doc!! I'm glad that I am getting FREE medical advice... Okay, I had a Mocha Latte, Butter Fish with Paprika Sauce and some mayo. That's about it. The Butter Fish did taste a bit weird. Not "rotten" weird but some kind of chemically-weird taste. Because it was not "rotten", I ate the whole thing. My boss reckons that it might be the chemical-preservative that may have been used on the fish. What do you think?

Your weekend sounds lovely (except for the dentist).
Kismet - Weekend was good! Did put up the Christmas tree and decorated it. THis is the first time that I put up the tree myself. H used to do it in the previous years. The dentist visit was not bad...at least, I didn't have to pay for this visit!!

Journalling...
As I've mentioned, I've gone DARK on H since my last post. On Friday evening, I did get two calls on my mobile. AS the caller ID didn't show any numbers, I knew it was H (as he was calling from overseas) and I let it go to voicemail. H then texted "Called but no answer. Up to you. I am taking customer to see XYZ on Sunday and Monday. Spoke to boys already". I didn't reply to his text. I met my MIL later in the evening at my Mom's house (She was having dinner over at my mom's and to visit the boys. Boys stayed over at my moms). I was in my plunging neckline dress... As I was getting in my car, she (MIL) ran out and asked "Why are you wearing such a low cut dress? Who are you having dinner with? Man or woman?" I just looked at her, gave her a BIG grin and said "Mmmm..hubby doesn't want me..." and left it at that. Ha ha ha. WOndered if she texted her son!!! I have to say that I looked GOOD. He he he. Was a frumpy mummy.....before..not now!! Met the girls for dinner..one of them even coined the term "GLAMOUR GIRLS" to refer to us... he hehe.

Next Day.. H did text and said that he was taking the customer to a football match, and "hope all is well". As a courtesy, I just replied "All is well" and left it at that.

Sunday, AM - Couldn't really sleep and did come out from my DARKNESS to send H a text "For any reconcialiation, I would expect 100% in truthfulness, commitment and effort. And I know you can't do it. So, no point being in limbo. We need a clean cut so that all of us can rebuild our lives. So why prolong all this? Please email me your separation proposal. Thanks. P/s Paid your credit card bills and your mom has paid your insurance)
H replied " Wow..Your English is very heavy in your text. Say what u wanna say but I know what I am doing. In fact, things has never been clearer than now. U'll hear from me very soon. Tell the boys I love them. Tell their mum too. Nite Nite. Didn't reply to this text. Don't want to be optimistic nor pessimistic. Just gonna let it go... H did call the house in the evening. I was out in the garden with soil up to elbows, my domestic helper called out to me but told her to just get the boys to speak to H. The boys took turns to talk to H and he told them that he would call them again tomorrow. So....another day has gone past...

One Day at a TIME!!!