I think these all sound like stalls. Promises of things to come, but never delivering. Statements to keep things status quo. NY - Mmmm...Yes, that does look it, huh? But I think things will have to turn to one way or the other in two months time. Not so much of my deadline (thought I did say end January)...but more of external forces. H has to give an answer to his company as to whether his family is joining him in Country X or not. Regardless of what happens, ow still cannot join him as his dependent because he is still married to me. Unless ow gets her own job herself... I guessed if I put this in perspective, status quo is better than going back months ago where he was rather adamant to leave us for ow.
I hope your break allowed you to recharge your DB batteries. Kismet - Errr...not sure about recharging batteries... me with two highly active boys??? Did feel kinda sad during the trip...met a family with 2 boys, and S8 kept on talking to the dad, sort of "clingy" in a way. Makes me realise that S8 is sort of craving for adult male attention...which he is not getting from his own father. This guy was pretty friendly towards S8 too... playing and talking to him like how his own father should be doing. Also, both S8 and this guy got stung by jellyfish..and he even helped to put some remedy on S8 on those spots.. *sigh* This really made me sad....
I would be very hesitant to sign anything as in my opinion he is not putting his money where his mouth is. But that is just my opinion, obviously it is a lot different when it is your life we are talking about. Not so much of signing stuff...but more of filling the application forms for the international school. As advised by my mentor, he said that I should do everything in my control to steer my situation to where I want it to be. And if I "hold" back on those forms, H could always turn the tables and say "I wanted you all to come, but you didn't want to sort out the boys' schools"... So, by doing my part of sending those forms, the ball is back in his court. So, if things go bad, I could tell myself that I've done all I could to keep the family together and will have no regrets... Thinking back... this was my "mantra"... that I do everything in my power and control, and if H still wants to leave the family, I can sincerely say that I've done my best. So, I shall fill those forms up and send it off...Just need to detach and take that exercise as merely an exercise...
Journalling... I did send H a text yesterday "As advised, I will contact the school directly, and will fill those forms and send them to you. The rest is up to you". H: I will call you when I reach Country Y. Already spoke to the boys Me: U forgot? U r not supposed to call me. Anyway, you have a good trip. It's like going back to college except that you are older....not sure about the wiser bit". H: Boarding. Will call you when I reach Country Y.
When I went to my mom's place. My mom told me that H called to talk to the boys, and called again to look for me...
Later that night, H did call me when he reached Country Y. I was a little apprehensive. But was glad that our convo was rather light... which was good. Then he said that he'll call me when he reaches London. Later, H texted "Boarding now. Call you when I reach London".
This morning (Wednesday), I got into work, and saw that H just logged into MSN Messenger...and he IMed H: Check this out. I am logging in from the plane. Me: I was just about to ask how on earth... Blah blah blah.. Again H IMed "Don't talk to your boss yet" Was a short IM session... he said that the free session was only a few minutes.. And said "I'll text you when I get there"
