Journalling..

Can't really remember all the details..but overall quite pleasant with H. Some R talks on Sunday Night and Monday Morning. We did argue abit on ow. We did have s@x everyday whilst I was there (except Monday...because we were arguing in the morning, and H had to go to work). Didn't exactly kiss and make-up but we did part on "friendly terms". Did meet him for lunch where he commented that I looked pretty blah blah blah.

I did more snooping...I found ow's stash of bras & undies in H's luggage bags. I took 3/4 out, cut them and disposed of them. Disposed half of her nail polish, all of her son block lotions, took her expensive toiletries.... Oh..reason that I didn't got rid of all is that when I am confronted, "Me? If it was me, I would have thrown ALL out! So, it can't be me!". Put some of my own bra n undies in the cupboard. My toiletries in the bathroom... When I went to put back the 1/4 of the stuff, I found photos!!! Oh gosh...I took two out...so that my sisters and mom knows how the b@tch looks like if they do see her. My god! Without her layers of makeup, she is really quite unimpressive. I feel so disappointed that my H cheated on me with her!!! Okay, to be fair, with her layers of make-up, fake eye-lashes and all, she looks quite nice. But without those things...I really don't know what he sees in her. And she absolutely has NO boobs!!! Probably a 32 A or 32AA. Gosh!!!

Anyway, from the photos, found that ow's whole family, father, mother, sister, brother ALL went to Country X and stayed in the house (yup, same one that I was staying when I was there...) around 7-9 October. I got to pop round to that date and see my post if I felt any "funny" feelings... ow does think that is HER house. And you know what stupid Mr.Yoyo said on one of our trysts (btw, he doesn't know that I know about the bras/undies, photos etc) "you ARE sleeping on her bed". I told him "Oh...goody. I am the OW now? I feel soooo naughty !!". I don't know what lies my H has been feeding her.. apparently she doesn't know that we were visiting him in Country X...and H said "Has it occurred to you that if I have been lying to you, I've also lied to her?" So, H is ONE BIG @SSHOLE!!!

One more thing that I found, H had secretly took out another credit card and racking up HUGE debts... wining and dining her, buying luxury goods and all. I tell you, H is NOT one who normally buys luxury stuff...and this b@tch has made him into someone I don't know anymore. I am soooo worried that he is digging a hole deeper and deeper for himself. I don't know, my guess is that he FEELS SO GOOD about himself, when he goes into those fancy luxury stores and be treated like a million dollars, and when he buys those things for ow, she would be "oh...my huney, you are soooo goood to me...wow...i lurve you soooo much"... and it made him FEEL good. I mean I would never ever be able to make myself go into one of those shops and spend that kind of money. I don't know if ow knows that he is racking up all these debts with her lavish lifestyle..which I must add that she is from a middle-class background NOT accustomed to all these things when growing up. I guessed she does have a good job now and FEELS that she can afford all these things and these things make her feel more sophisticated and classy?? WHich I am sorry to say, no amount of designer luxury goods will give.... And H is living in a la-la land? How long can he sustain this kind of lifestyle??? Deceit??? Does ow know that he is racking up all these debt??? And when her whole family was in Country X, no doubt he paid for everything!!! And he has the cheek to tell me that he doesn't have much $$. My friends were telling me to upgrade and buy more luxury stuff with H's money... I don't think I can make myself do it.
1) I don't need all the PRADAS and TODS to make me feel a cut above. I know that I AM a cut above.
2) I cannot make myself spend $$$$$$ on these things.
3) I don't want H to be ridden with MORE debt.

What can I do? I did send him an email... about what IF I call her? Oh..and he has called me back...and said "If you call her, we are done!" Threatening me?? I am sooooo fed-up with it all....