Okay...things are not so calm now...think things will start stirring now...This morning, I had a long talk with my boss about job prospects in Country X. And the answer was YES. So, I texted H.
Me: Spoke to my boss about job prospects in Country X. A definite yes. They are currently looking for staff, and if I want the job, it'll be mine. Do you want me to bring the boys to Country X for the weekend?Btw, what about this weekend? You will definitely be back or should I bring boys over? Otherwise, it will be ages before the boys get to see you.. H: Will let you know tonight. Otherwise, u can come over... H: Happy to hear abt the job. But we need to talk this weekend. Feel really confuse n crap now. Me: Ok. Hope you are alright. I understand the confusion and the hurt. But hopefully, time will heal... H: Not sure if I can go thru with it. Me: What do you propose then? You know my stand. H: don't know. I'm in meeting now. talk later. Me: ok. Call me tonight. You know that I cannot give up my husband easily so that another woman can have mine, and my kids not have a father. I don't want the boys to grow up in a broken home. I don't want the boys to experience the pain of knowing their father sacrifice them for another woman. The way you are going, I feel like I need to call her up or meet her face to face.
About 5 minutes later, H called. He sounded normal. We had a short chat, ranging from the job scope to boys to OW. (I know that I shouldn't bring her up...but...). Don't think he had the guts to break it up with OW. H of course repeatedly said that I shouldn't call OW. (of course I won't but he's afraid that I would...he he he.... NO, no anger on his part...more of protective fear for OW??) He will sort it out himself. One question that I asked H was "were you hoping that I didn't have a job in Country X?" to which he replied NO. Other parts of our convo were about doing what is best for the boys to which H replied " I know this 9 months ago and it didn't give me the push blah blah blah". I told h that perhaps he should just "give up the two women and be alone, and give up kids and begone away"... He was very adamant that he "wants the kids"... Anyway, our contact though seems dramatically emotional...was NOT. The end of our convo was "need to talk this weekend. Will let you know if I come back or you come over with the kids".....so, not that bad. Overall was calm.
After the convo, I sent H a text "Just want to tell you that I know it is difficult. I know it hurts. I know it will be a challenge to rebuild our marriage. But I also know that it will be worthwhile for us, for the boys, for our family. And yes, for her too. Love, Wifey (p/s maybe you can take me out to somewhere fancy next week. Dying to wear my new plunging neckline dress!!)
