KDU - Thanks for checking... Don't worry about me. I do not think about OW in terms of whether if she is prettier, better, more fun etc etc anymore. That's fairly out of my system (fingers-crossed). These days, I only think of her when I need to boost up my bionic strength ...to continue to fight for what I believe in, ie. saving my M and keeping my H for myself. With that in mind, it gives me motivation to be cheerful, and pleasant when I am in contact with H. As for mentioning OW to H; I will STOP doing so. I will ACT AS-IF there is no such person, and we are okay... I need to SHOW H that I am pleasant, fun, cheeful and the more attractive option than OW. I have to continue to keep my composure and wait this out......
Journalling... Last night, sent H a text to update on the boys... Me: What's up? Busy? It's 1 am over here. Surfin the net. Had a trim and our politician said "still soooo beautiful" but S8 didn't even notice! Took boys to ISL with the Ls and Ns. Had dinner @ the Ls. Very sleepy. Call you tmrw. Nite. Take Care. No reply from H... wasn't sure if the text reached him because my mobile indicated that the message was still "pending". Received a text from H in the wee hours of this morning. Didn't read it till it was a decent hour. H: Change of plans. Not going to Europe. COO wants to play golf. Going to famous Pebble Beach in SFX. Will be flying tomorrow. Me: Quite a sudden change of plans, isn't it? COO of your co or client? SFX? Last time we were there was 9 years ago, during our Honeymoon. Anyway, get some Ghiradelli chocolates. Not too much though. Call you later. Love Wifey.
Still my message was showing "Pending". Called H when the boys were UP, but couldn't get through. So, sent him a text again. Me: Tried calling, but couldn't get through. Have you been receiving my texts? Kept on showing as "pending" on my phone.
Later, I received a text from H "Call me now" but I guessed I didn't see the message, as he called me on my mobile. We had a short chat...about his scheduled trip to SFX, told me he was at a bar now, his schedule to fly back, asked him if he received my "pending" messages and he said that he did.. then let him speak to both S5 and S8. When the phone was passed back to me, I asked "did you tell them that you love them?" and H said that I should put them back on...so, that was it. So far, cordial and pleasant. No mushy stuff. Mosf of my mushy stuff (ILY, IMY) were all on texts...
Set-up an email account for S8 today, and he sent a short email to his dad.... the usual, I miss you and when can I see you again...hopefully that will pull on his heartstrings.
SIL may come over for a visit later today... Another thing is to maintain contact with my in-laws and to maintain "support" for my M and family....
