Locked out but still here - big update

[Toomanywords]

Hope - I'm sorry for the hurt (emotional and physical) you are going through right now.

Please belive me when I say that you are not a bad mother.
As long as you are communicating with your D, talking openly, honestly with her, spending time with her, listening to her - she is going to be fine. Even if you weren't doing these things, if she is anything like you - she is strong and smart and will be ok.

You can start asking how she wants to decorate your house, her room, etc. Involve her.
That's what my mom did when she got divorced, it helped. I felt so grown up and involved when I got a say in colors in the house and wall paper and I got to help paint, etc.

My mom also used to make girls days, where she would make my favorite foods, take me to do my favorite things. It was just fun. Even when she didn't have any money, she found ways to spend time with me and make sure I was ok and happy.

I'm praying for you, praying for the house to sell quickly and for you to get the townhouse and for the pain to ease.

Hang in there.
Hugs!