Hope I know how you feel I'm gonna get the D papers this wee. I think he did this on purpose b/c it's my birthday Fri. the 11, I didn't want it to come to this but here Iam and I still don't want it but I can't stop him and thats the bottom line I wish he would wake you but thats asking to much. I wonder if there is any chance of us getting back together again I think the pain from the D will probably throw any hoe of that out the window. I still love him and want to be with him we have 22yrs. in this. along with our 2 kids who will be devistated in the end. I can't imagine being strong but knowing that I have to I don't even want to get out of bed today.H will be bringing S home a little later today and don't know what to do when he comes I know I will cry I'm crying just typing this.and feel really down but do I let him see me cry?.i know he will at some point and time.thanks Joa.
