My Goals as of right now: 1. Get house ready to sell 2. Put house on the market 3. Start packing 4. Sit down with Josh and create a plan of action 5. Sit down with the girls and break their hearts again 6. Prepare paperwork for move (loan, school, doctors) 7. Do at least one extra fun thing with the kids each week 8. Do at least one extra fun thing for myself each week
That's it for right now. I have more for after the move though.
Things at home are, I have no idea what to word to use here. For the past two days almost as soon as I get home he goes and takes a nap. Doesn't get up until I go to bed. I really don't care. I can get more done without him underfoot all the time.
I woke up at one point last night to get some water. He was up and wanted to talk to me. It's like 1am and I'm half asleep. So I said okay anyway. I was too tired to argue much. Well now it seems the answer to all his problems is that he's not living in California. If he moves there, life will be perfect. It was all I could do not to laugh.
Really. I told him to do what he needed to do. I'm torn. I don't want him to move 3000 miles away, mostly for D11s sake. This will be father number 2 that has run out on her. But for my sake and sanity, I hope he does. It's going to hurt, really badly. Even more than him just moving out. But I know and I keep telling myself that in the long run it will be for the better.
So I pray and I go on. Things will be okay one day.
