The question rattling around my head the past few days is why do I want "this spontaneous, desire filled, erotic experience", is it something that is supposed to be there in our relationships, or is it something that the secular society has put in our minds as some ideal to achieve, even if it is not necessarily what God intended? Are we too busy looking at what the media etc says others have to notice what we have in our own relationships? Is this the little devil standing on our shoulders trying to goad us into adultery? I certainly don't have the answers, but in my current state of recovering from dontgivashititis, I can't help but to wonder about these questions. I am comfortable and happy in my relationship with MrsGGB except in the sexual desire department. Why is that something I want so much? Is it just because I'm being greedy thinking that it is something that perhaps others have more of? See, I often hear comments from others saying they wish they had the type of R MrsGGB and I have. I have had a hard time seeing the good in our R because I have been so focused on what it is not rather than what it is. I am still feeling like communication is a key to growing closer together be is sexually or otherwise.
Ah well, just ruminating a bit. Still trying to sort all this out.
