Hi Spitfire, It's so good to know someone out there cares! Thank you. It has been a strange few weeks for me. H has been hot and cold. We had a huge argument a week ago and didn't speak for a few days. Neither of us called the other. It is usually me reaching out to him to appologise. I know it was wrong to lose my temper. Anyway, it was precipitated with my meeting a man at a party who called and emailed me contstantly. Nothing more, although his emails did sound like there might be more! Well H found one of his emails while "checking something on my computer" and blew up. He accused me of all kind of horrible things. It was almost funny. It really was good to know that he cared enough to get angry. We talked for hours after our very angry outbursts and identified some of what we had been doing wrong...on both sides. Still, I didn't hesar from him for several days. I went out of town to visit his family and some of my friends. He stayed at our house with our Daughter. During those few days he said he saw the other man drive by and received several hang up calls. Maybe it woke him up to the fact that he is not the only one who can have another life. Whatever, he has been extremly kind and attentive. He has come to the house several times and has even ask me to go on a couple of trips during the next few months. I still do not completely trust him and sometimes wonder what he could be up to but for now I'm just enjoying the fruits of DBing! I am beginning to like myself much more knowing that I have some control over my own emotion. Even if I do slip every now and then at least those slips are getting fewer and further between.
How are you doing? Are you home for Christmas or off somewhere? We are staying home as my 27 yr old only has a few days off. Let me hear from you. You and your boys remain in my thoughts and prayers. Remember this IS the season of hope!
