Hi SallyG- Thanks for your response...Today started off as a good day...now it kind of sucks. Sometimes i feel like i set myself up by trying to be positive...hate it. I am sorry that things are not going well with your H and that you feel closer to D...i know how hard that is. Why is it that we allow them to have us while having the OW? In my case, I really have turned a blind eye to it b/c i really didn't want to believe it about my H...but, i know now that i should have stood up to him 2 years ago when his bs started...maybe we wouldn't be here now... I do try to think about what life would be like without him...just can't imagine it... Keeping busy helps...as long as i am motivated to do it... You're right, we don't deserve to live in misery and pain...but, it wasn't always bad...there was some happiness...how do we get back to a good place? Not necessarily where we were, but to a happy place? I wish i had a magic wand and could just change the whole thing... I try to be appreciative of every day and realize that my life could be a lot worse. Thing is, when you are in so much pain, it is hard to see past it... Thanks again...take care...
