Hi SallyG- Thanks for your feedback...it means a lot. I can identify with sadness being a constant companion. It seems like no matter what i do, I just feel miserable. There is not a minute during the day when i do not think about my sitch. I just wish i could have one day where i don't think about it...i just feel like i have a huge weight on me that won't leave. I know that i have the power to make it go away, but sometimes it is easier just to give up and deal. I keep hoping that one day i will feel like you and be more at peace with whatever the outcome may be. Maybe one day... I believe that my H is conflicted over what he wants (and maybe that means who he wants as well). The one thing I haven't really felt (i don't think) is lousy about myself (in terms of him being with another woman)...i know who she is, and frankly, she ain't nothing to write home about! Hee-hee! But seriously, in my case, i think my H turned to her because his emotional needs were not being met by me...has nothing to do with her being more attractive physically (if i do say so myself ) Basically, i try to take one day at a time. I focus on the positive baby steps that we have been making, and try to play on the part of my H that remains ambivalent. That means continuing to do the 180 and LRT...ahh, if it was only that easy. I am sorry that you have to be here with us, but it does seem like you have a positive attitude...maybe it will rub off on me! Take care...keep us updated!
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