Same question applies to those people who know you...how do you think your W and friends would describe you if they were asked? There are many clues about ourselves that reside in how others perceive us...you don't need a therapist to tell you that right? The truth often resides somewhere between how we see ourselves and how others see us.
I don't know. No one I know (I don't have a wide circle of friends) describes me as hateful, childish, very angry or macho or anything like that. Except, for our church musical this spring, I put on a white vinyl jumpsuit Elvis costume and sang "U.S. Male" for the audience:
Now I've said all that to say all this, I've been watching the way you've been watching my Miss. For 3 long weeks you've been hot on her trail, You're kinda upsetting this U.S. Male. . . . She's wearing a ring I bought her on sale, That's makes her the property of this U.S. Male.
Better not mess with the U.S. Male my friend. If you do this U.S. Male will do you in. If you know what's good for yourself, son, You better find somebody else, son. Don't tamper with the property of this U.S. Male.
One the women in the choir wouldn't sing backup for me on that song because she said it was a male chauvinist song.
Also, we were having a choir meeting, and the Choir Director was brainstorming about our next musical. I said, "I think we should have the women show more leg, that would bring in lots of money." The Director looked like he had swallowed a catfish, and one of the other choir ladies said to my wife, "-------- (my wife), smack him!" So I said, "What can I say, I'm just an MCP."
Also, I was talking with another choir member and said I was going to buy this dancing Santa doll from CVS who sings, "Y'all Ready for This?" and turns around and shakes his tush. The guy said, "-------, you're crazy!"
I asked my wife if she thought I was angry, macho, manipulative, childish; she said, "No, honey, whatever made you think of that?". I tell her some of what I post on this board and the friendly greetings I get from the other posters.
"The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong in the broken places." - Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms, 1929.