it seems to be awful quick to me to lower the dosages weekly. I dont know your diet otherwise, but you been messing with brain chemistry for a bit. Its gonna affect you, halving it is-- wow. alot.
On to your Ice princess.
I said before that the new Strong, earning and requiring respect HD was going to be tested. I said it may even get upped on occasions. She loves power, and will neither give it up easily nor believe quickly. It does effect her rapidly though. and that is why it has to be tested so strongly by her. Because her perceptions of it in the past let her down.
This is subconcious in all likelyhood. OK. So do not TAKE it PERSONAL. Gosh will that be possible? with meds and such. If it is I will come and sit at the feet of Hair Dog to become learned in the arts of strongness.
Actually I think the meds is a double edged sword in your favor. Any slip up can be blamed on them and your dissasociation because of it will be taken as detached.
Repeat, dont take it too far.
So her code
I basically started crying, and couldn't stop. I wasn't keening or wailing; I just couldn't stop the tears. This is totally not like me, and it kind of freaked her out.
Cool a serious 180. She wants to know what does it mean, Why did he do that. She is on high alert now, watching you.
W calls me and asks how it went proof of high alert.
After I told her that I didn't want to discuss it, she paused, and then said, "We're going nowhere. Our marriage is going nowhere."
Test. She wants to know where you are. Cant say HD 'where are you' (words arent truth) so throws out a negative to see if you agree. Are you strong and for the marriage in love with her still( dont say either yet. IMO) or does she need to lock herself down from the pain that will come from losing you. prepare for battle so to speak.
We're going nowhere if you can't trust me enough to share your discussions with the MC with me.
double test. she heard you the first time, but you normally do as told. second she needs to know answer. Its important and scary to her.
Okay, so I guess even though I'm the one suffering from the weird-azz side effects, I have to treat her with consideration (translation: tell her everything I told the MC about her) before I am entitled to consideration.
<buzzer> wrong translation. personalized. but you realized she was putting her needs above yours. This is unattractive to a woman. I will explain more.
A woman wants you to meet her needs, and will tell you how to do it. But if you do it whenever, whereever, however she tells you AND at the expense of your needs, <buzzer> wrong thing to do. (See Lil's test of me above.) A woman cannot trust a man that subjugates, supplicates, or places his needs lower then hers. End of story. she will not open her heart or her legs to him.
I hung up. Wild cheering for HD putting his needs above wifes.
Reaction, (remember words lie always watch the body language and actions)
she was apologetic, somewhat. And she was touchy-feely, somewhat. supplicating, submissive, using last resort technique, I.E. PT.
pushed her hand away politely more cheering for passing last resort technique. politely, without anger, or resentment, or any negative vibe. Gosh I am vibrating with being so pleased with things.
This morning she called me at work and said that she missed me. standard girl code. she is thinking about you. What is happening. Where does she stand. Push/pull dynamic. Very good sign.
Well, I just wish you were here. MC said you were supposed to be more confident and try initiating. See. I told you women tell you exactly how to fill their needs. its just indirect. MC fault not hers. You guys are practically in dating mode. Physical escalation cannot be the females fault.
Sheesh! It's hard enough to get to sleep after having been pushed away. It's hard enough to face yet another Saturday or Sunday after having been pushed away. Getting rejected first thing in the morning on a work day sounds like my favorite way to start the day. Not."
Danger, personalizing, fearing rejection, resentment. NO, NO. What would a confidant devil may care HD say to this? What would ballsy initial R HD say to this?
Yes, she says that I didn't check with her before deciding to go off of it, and that I should have done that, and then we could have planned a better time to do this when there is "less stress" in our lives. I take it you didnt initiate. So she is back to negative testing, Why is he doing this, what does he mean. She is the weaker vessel. The emotionally vulnerable one. So she is prepping for the worst. You are acting so different, why dont you care anymore? are you leaving her? She is off balance. Maybe a Good time to do a nice gesture, loving gesture, I am thinking of you, and love you gesture. With out strings or neediness. Calibrate and decide.
I told her no Excellent. Strong, taking care of your needs. Ignore her words they are fear inspired. Watch her actions, reassure her -occasionally- let her continue to reach out physically. Watch for real seduction, different actions, especially in the moring. Did she change and typical behavior? Get up with you, chat with you, etc?
She's trying to control me. I don't give a sh!t. No and almost. she is testing you. Dont care if she leaves, she wont. and dont be indifferent.
Lovingly detached.
Proceed normally, don't share any weird feelings I'm having with her, learn from this. Yes, maybe occasionally and yes.
I want to state for the record that I see a couple of things going on. Im not going to deal with the second right now, just want to be able to point back and say remember when I said....
Its not important right now, you have a lot on your plate already. Well get to it.
Cool?
Thanks for the email, TTYS.
Oh yeah What reasons does she have for loving you? What ties and common LL do you have. How much history is there?
Oh yeah again. When she says take care of x, or stand up to her or whatever, this is a way for you to become strong for you and attractive to her. its a win win for you, and another example of her telling you exactly what she needs. Its for your benefit and self improvement.
