pffff. stop thinking with your 'wrong memeber' J/K. I meant what dreams do you have, what activities would you like to engage in -other then sexual- ? When is the last time you changed your cologne? or updated your dress style? Do you workout, even minimally like calistenics? People starting a new R do all of these. expecailly the dieting or working out. They take a class, or go explore new places.
I keep on wanting that elusive guarantee that, when it all shakes out, I'll be getting some action between the sheets.
You must stop caring about the outcome other then your own self worth and improvement. It causes you to physicly lean on the other person. Lean back, emotionally and with your body language. Monitor yourself. When she does something physical or starts a HD poke fest, do you lean in? Does your posture plead, or does it stay above the fray? Does it say come to me or please like me?
This 180 is a terrific step for you. It can be scary and hard in the beginning.
Now a word of caution. You have to remain available and possible interested still. If you are indifferent and withdraw to hard it can prompt her to withdraw too.
This is not a fine line it is a razor edge. Your nimble toes can pirouette across it I have no doubt.
Remember No Disrespect, amused tolerance at her predictable testing and seeking physical reassurances, and attraction to the dominant HD.
Get over the negative connotation of dominant. Learn to love it.
