Yes, chocoballs, I get what you mean. I was just messin' with you.
Corri: It's tough to deal with, this surrendering of oneself. (Surrendering is not the best word, because of its negative connotations, but you know what I mean.) I keep on wanting that elusive guarantee that, when it all shakes out, I'll be getting some action between the sheets. I think I just needed to try every other way to try to get that action, before I realized that, if it's going to happen, it will happen. If it's not going to happen, it's just not going to happen. Yes, there is a sense of loss involved, but, kind of like Atldave pointed out, I just need to say to those negative thoughts of loss, and to any associated anger, "you are not welcome in my head."
All I can do is try to be a good dad, a good son, a good husband, a good person, and a good employee. A mensch.
Sheesh, now if I can just keep on track with that thought process. . . .
