Thanks, LIL.
I have been able to sleep again.
H completely disappeared. I saw a call from him at the house's caller ID, but he hasn't called ever since.
I think two things: he is embarrassed of my mom (and I bet I won't see him for a while) and is running away from D talk.
I wrote him an e-mail explaining that he misunderstood me. When we were trying to reconcile, he kept coming over all the time and I didn't like it (remember?). I thought he was controlling and that was too much, too soon. I kept running away from him trying to pace it (the reconciliation).
He told me on the phone on Friday that he did all that because he thought that's what I wanted. He thought that if he took it slow I would make a big deal of it. So clearly we didn't get each other.
I just thought I had to make a point of what I wanted: seeing each other once or twice a week if we are to reconcile because the everyday thing was a little overwhelming for both of us.
Now I have to wait (bummer) because I know the next step is his. It's so hard to wait, but that has worked in the past. It always gets him wondering.
