Quote: crying is good for you sometimes, releases lots of endorphins and helps you sleep - just makes you look c-r-a-p when you wake up so you will need
I picked up my mom from the airport and she asked, "did you drink too much or did you cry too much?"
I lied saying I drank too much.
This a BIG 180 for me: not worrying my mom with my problems. Througout this R and my entire life, when the going gets tough, my mom is the first person I call, day or night, usually histerically crying.
She solves all my problems with words of strength, but eventually gets so worked up by them, that she ends up getting depressed too.
My mom hates my H and thinks he is out of his mind (don't we all), but the problem is that she only saw him twice in her life (she lives in another country) and doesn't speak his language, so of course she has this very much biased notion that I am a princess and he is just a frog.
So I decided: 1. will not tell my mom how sad I have REALLY been. 2. will tell her his side of the story too. In case we get back together, I don't want her to hate him. 3. will refrain from bedmouthing H and telling her the mean things he is doing.
Updating: H said he would call today to discuss our D, as we have talked the day before. I called him just to ask if he could take the dog and that there was a ski sale near the house. I left a message and didn't mention "the talk." He didn't pick up his phone nor returned the call.
It's interesting that whenever I am ready to openly discuss the big D, he runs away. There's always something he HAS to do. Last time he HAD to go to the gym...The time before that, even though we had been talking online for over an hour, when I brought up the subject, he got really busy.
I'm trying to make heads and tails of this. He doesn't want to be married, but flys like a bat from hell when we are about to discuss D. Why?
