People like you give me so much strength and hope.
A part of me thinks it's better to just end it all, suffer it all at once and move on, but another thinks that this is quitting, it's not facing the problem, not changing myself for the better, for a more centered and patient person.
One thing Michele says is that the problems from an R will carry on to the next one and I think it's true.
I have been crying all night. I don't know if everyone has this crying spells. It's exhausting. I must be getting my period or something.
Anyway, thank you again. I will go dark. He asked me to call him today. I won't. Maybe I won't answer the phone either when he calls. I will decide.
