The more I read other threads (even successfull ones), the more convinced I am that H has cheated on me. His attitude is really out of character from the men he used to be. Plus the guilt he is feeling; how he comes home sometimes crying because he thinks he is hurting me so bad.
I feel like I should bring this up to him. I don't know why. Maybe I just need reassurance that he never did anything, but I don't trust him.
That monday when he came over and told me all those things (that he wanted to have babies, that I was the most beautiful girl he had ever met, that I was the only girl he ever trusted, that he would never meet anyone like me, that divorce was just too messy, that he missed me) I was convinced this was just a phase he had been through. But once he started having doubts again, I could see how he could have felt bad for coming back home when he knew I had been faithful to him (if he hasn't).
I forgot to mention this, but while he was here on Monday, he called all my new friends (their phones were in the caller ID) and hung up. I knew he did that because my friends called me later on asking why I called in the afternoon. I didn't.
Anyway, I am thinking about writing him an e-mail just to push his bottons on the subject because if there is one thing I will not admit is if he has been unfaithfull to me, but at the same time, I don't want to know.
