I was reading through one of my diaries from when I met H and it says something like: "...he is complaining that his friend's ex-girlfriend is chasing his friend and acting psycho. He is so glad I am not like this and actually liked to pursuing me"
DUH!
What had worked for me so far is distancing myself. Why is it SO hard to put that in my little head???? Why do I go back to calling and wanting to talk about us????
I need to do another big 180: talking with EVERYBODY about my R. It really confuses me to hear different opinions, ESPECIALLY from people that barely know H and our problems. Most people just think he is an unconsiderate jerk who probably has an A. They don't know how difficult I was with him, how cold and mean I was many times and how I pushed him away. I know most people are just trying to help by making me the better person, but it just doesn't.
Need to stop blabing so much and just trust the DB people because I DO want to save my M.
