Renegade: I am experiencing a lot of anxiety, though lately. I am having a hard time feeling comfortable in our R all of the time. Essentially I am having trouble feeling confidence in US.
Just say that you're not alone in this at all! I was feeling great the first four months and then let the anxiety drag me into a huge backslide of suspicion and confronting my H with the past. It's almost seven months and I'm still not completely comfortable. I get moody for no reason and I know it's because I fear what might be around the corner even though things are going great.
Just try to keep up your PMA and focus on the positives. Try to share your anxious feelings here or with a friend so that you don't sabotage your R with your W. Don't know if you have a tendency to do that at all.. just projecting from my sitch because that's where I've went wrong. By dragging H back into the past by expressing my anxieties, I treated myself to a lot of encouragement from him, but it only accomplished dragging him backwards. He said "I go two steps forward and you knock me back down"
After the Affair is a good book. His Needs/Her Needs is also good if you havent read it. It's helpe me and H.
Glad things are going well for the most part.. try to enjoy it!
