We'll I screwed up-during my earlier post my wife calls-she is crying and says she can't sleep, wants me to send her some meds(she has a problem) and ask me for some money. I told I would think about it and ask her to go to Counciling. End of call-She leaves message and says forget the whole thing she will just struggle through it. We'll she call to see if I got message and I told her that I loved her still and that I didn't want a D, she ask if I was dating and I said no and so she told me what a good catch I will be for someone. I told I didn't need the pitty and then she told how bad I negligeted her and how much I drank and why have I not stopped. I called her several weeks ago when I was drunk. I told I would send the DB book and she said she would read it. I did almost every thing wrong. And no I do still drink it may be the only thing that can take the edge off enough so that I don't kill myself. Pretty weak I know. She said we were deffently going through with the divorce and I told here that I just wanted her to be happy and if that is what she wanted than ok. She said that is not what I want its what I have to do. I don't get it now that I am willing to change almost anything its the too little to late. We are suppose to go to C with her C she is suppose to call me tomorrow and tell me when and the time. She said it will do no good.
