oh well, i could not find my own posts. sort of like after page four, there was not my post. so i am writing in the hopes that my posts dont get lost. same situation, no critical updates, just exercising and feeling better, getting used to living with myself. it takes 2 years to mourn, next july it will be a year. i still think and get a bit sad, but nothing compared to the devastation of 8 months ago.
