update. Ds are still with me but i am feeling a little down sometimes because they have to go back with their M next week. i would really love to have custody of them, i could actually fight for them. however, Ts and a child psychologist told me that it is better for kids to stay with their mother, and more so if they are female. but, i feel 75% complete when i am around them, its like life makes sense again feeling, that i sort of loose when i am not around them. anyone, has comments, feelings, or has lived this situation before? i would greatly appreciate input. again, the question is, are they better off with mother or me (she is a good person and mother, apart from the fact that she is with OP), in a way i dont want to make that a huge factor, because what if i fall in love in the near future, what would i say then.
