hello everyone, well like i wrote, my Ds came home, they have been 1 week with me, and everything is going well. last saturday, i had a dinner celebrating my 40th bday. it was complete with Ds present, family, and old friends. got totally drunk, because i had margaritas for cocktail, dinner was accompanied by wine, and had cognac for dessert. mistake was that i had 3iple serving of cognac. later went to a club, and had a sad massive hang over the next day. oh well, that is how i started my new decade. Ds are happy, they really live in the now, i go to work, i organize their mornings, come to lunch, then organize their afternoons, and come back early to share with them. next week i am going to spend more time with them, and after xmas, we are going with bro and his kids, and my parents to spend a week hanging out in a valley type kind of city with temperate weather. i think i am GALing, pretty much accepted what life gave me, and with the help of T, am finding me again. i feel fine, i feel better. it is so good not to have expectations about W, i ask myself, why couldnt i have done this before??????????????????????? it would have saved me alot of anguish. then againn, good experience to enjoy some peace. cant enjoy guitar playing if you never tried it, so it was good to feel real pain i guess. W is the same, pretty much, a friend and detacheed, difference is that now i dont care that much. it has been 5 months now. i am pretty sure i feel the way i feel because i know my Ds love me, and i know they are fine, ad i know i have not lost them. it would have been nice to be with W as well, but she decided this, so that is it.
