Thanks to tambos invitation i am moving here. my post was WAW, in the walk away wife syndrome forum, if you would like to read my situation..... well, updating, i got pissed tonight because my W took my Ds to spend sunday with the OM. i prepared for that before, but it really got to me. called her up and threatened her that if she kept that up, i would file and make a point of getting custody of Ds. then i called her again, and explained that i was hurt and apologized for the threats. then called again and told her that i loved all of them and that thinking that OM would spend time with them without me, just killed me. she said she understood and that she was hurting as well (YEAH RIGHT, YOU F...... B....). well, here it goes, i am frankly sick and tired of waiting, i dont think i have the strength and patience to go back with her. i really feel that i want to be a good father and try my best to be with them when i can (Ds, that is). concerning W, i really feel a huge wall beginning to solidify in my heart, i reached the threshold where anger beats my loving memories of her. i feel that my guilt is being covered by anger which will be manifested through indifference. and i am really good at building walls, in this case however, because i gave so much of me to my M, i really felt vulnerable. her attitudes, and actions however, are pushing me to this... i am deeply hurt and i just wish i would have never met her, if only i didnt have my Ds, i would sleep like a baby. Ds keep me on the rollercoaster ride........ oh well, i guess day by day ill have to see what God prepared for my life.
