I do have a job but it is only part time. Only thing I could get after not working for 11 years. Got my feet wet, sort of. I plan on going back to school as soon as I can get a grant or scholorship (maybe loan). H makes quite a lot at his job so he won't suffer. He just thinks he can still control me by denying me money and access to getting little things for my son. He buys everything right now for son and takes him everywhere S wants to go. But my son is determined to be strong for me, I told him its the other way round. H introduced S to OW last night at a party in a restaurant for his younger brother. This woman and her friend came to table with a present sat down and stayed whole time. My son had promised his father not to tell me anything that went on down there, but he told me today. He said he spoke to her and then ignored her. Said he thought she was funny but didn't want her for a stepmother. Where that came from is anyone's guess (probably father). I have had all day to think of this and decided to finally let go. It is killing me but have finally realized my H does not want to come home anytime soon or maybe never. I just am angry that he had promised me that I wouldn't have to worry about the OW meeting our son and then pulled this stunt. He told my son that he didn't know she was coming. Come on, she came to that particular restaurant at that particular time, with a gift. Who do they think they are fooling. I am sure my son sees thru that, but still wants to believe his father would never lie to him. It hurts me to think his father doesn't take my sons feelings into account. Only thinks of himself and OW's feelings. I am determined not to react to this at all. Act like I don't care. See what other mind games they have in store for me. When I stop reacting, what will they talk about. What will they do for fun? Seems like they concentrate on me a lot. Let's see if they can find something else to do. My son doesn't want to stay down there next weekend. He told me today. I believe he is starting to see what his father is doing. It hurts me to see him hurting and not be able to help him. Thanks for listening, sometimes just need to vent. My family is wonderful but they lecture a lot and just tell me I am better off without the SOB. Doesn't help. The feelings just won't go away. No matter how much he hurts me. I truely wish they would sometimes.
