I didnt want to hijack Cobra's thread. But I really liked you flagging me down. Cobras
Like this thread says, I outlasted my C who retired and have been C-free for 3months.
As Cobra said, you have to consciously defend from falling deeper down than you were. That little rule that goes something like, Insanity is doing the same thing Over and over and expecting different results. That Looping flow chart of dejection is all too true.
I did explode, for me, actually "hold my own, claiming that he's taken xyz out of my life and wasn't going to take conversation too. And, well things are better cuz I'm not expecting ANYTHING so getting a little is uplifting.
The other night I reacted to my normal good night kiss, reminisant of the "kiss M&D goodnight, and don't forget to brush your teeth" of all those many years ago. Lamenting the loneliness and being thankful I have figured out how to bundle myself for cozy and reasurance (similar, unfortunately to a papoose or a chile on a swadling board). Touch is so important to the nurturing of the child, and I guess I need it too.
Well like I said, the other night the loneliness bit me. I guess that's why I'm hear again.
How are you doing? You got buisy this summer. What are you doing now? Have things progressed with you?
I haven't gone back and read the board, I guess I'm looking for the Cliffnotes version from all of us.
Pity me that the heart is slow to learn
What the swift mind beholds at every turn.
Edna St. Vincent Millay
