Quote: I've spent the last six years with this man. Most of them have been in drama. I really thought this time would be different. Maybe give it a few days and see? Just cut my loses now and put the house up for sale? I don't know what to do.
If it has been 6 years, what is a couple more months to get through the holidays? Maybe if you approach it as lets get through the holidays and then you all can discuss what the next step is maybe it will take the pressure off of both of you. Don't beat yourself up over this. From your post I know you love your XH and want things to work out and have done everything in your power but on the other hand, you want to just give up and give in. A person can only take so much. I think you are at the end of your rope and you don't know whether to let go or hang on. This is a decision only you can answer. I don't think it is one God can help you with. I hope that doesn't sound mean but I think now you really need to do some soul searching.
Quote: The only things I know for sure is I love him and I want to stop hurting.
If you figure a way to stop hurting, please let me know. I know what you are going through here. Some days I wonder if I should just give up and then I see a spark of something in his eyes and just know I need to hang on.
Quote: Tonight we're going to the concert. I wish I could be excited (I really do want to see the bands that are playing) but I just can't do it. I figure since I have nothing, absolutely nothing, to lose I will put on a happy face and try to make tonight as fun as I can. I just wish it would matter.
Please have a good time tonight. Not for him but for you. Go out and enjoy yourself. If you go to the concert feeling lousy you won't have any fun. Try to put your problems in the back of your head for awhile. Just for tonight. Give you brain time to relax, give your heart time to heal some.
Quote: Guys I'm sorry. I didn't mean to bring anyone else down with me. I honestly believe that if you still have hope in your sitch that you should not give up. Everyone is different and I pray that each of you end up with a different outcome than mine.
You didn't bring me down, it is upsetting to see anyone go through this. I try to stay upbeat but some days I just can't do it. Every situation is different and each person has to continue until they feel it is the end. I am only in the middle of my rope right now. I can go either way.
Hope....go out tonight, let your hair down and have lots of fun.
