No, I am giving up. I'm letting him go. I will not play this game of lets see how bad I can treat her before she breaks. I'll let him stay until after the holidays. I need his help financially right now. But after the holidays I won't. I hate that I will be losing my D9. I hate that more than losing him. I know that he will soon figure out what he's lost, but I don't plan on being around at that point. He's made his choice. It's not me, it's not our family. It's been almost five months and it's only gotten worse. We are not even friends anymore. I love him but I will not let him destroy me. He's not worth losing myself over. And honestly, if he woke up tomorrow and told me he was sorry and than he wanted this, I don't know that I could do it. Too much has happened. My feelings have changed.
